You cant' touch the dreams

The affection of mother I refused
I ignored all my friends
I was alone as I desired
I thought I’d learn the lesson
It was a sweet child dream

Should I believe in destiny?
Could you disappear of my life?
I can’t stand close to you
Your lies wound me deeply
I beg you stop to deceive me

Everyone uses us to satisfy their desires
Unfortunately this is our life
Am I just a puppet in the hands of the great universe?

In the last days I felt so useless
Are you afraid of disappointing me?
I know nobody is perfect
Who am I to disagree of laws of the nature?

What have I done to be happy?
Is it possible to see through my eyes?
In the sea of contradictions
Where any human being lives in the Earth

How it’s difficult to trust
Everything that you can’t see
Everything that you can’t touch
Cause dreams you can’t touch
You can’t prove for the world
That they are real to you

Broken World

I don't know why I feel
The way that I do now.
With an urge to kill,
A desire to thrill,
While my world crashes down.

Once upon a time,
I was angel with silver wings-
I broke my word,
I killed my dreams,
But nobody there forgave my sins.

So now I'm just this victim
Of preconception
And true damnation,
Wracked with splinters,
Reminding me of
My wicked immoralation.

I'm reaching out into a world
I can no longer see.
Twisting emotions,
Chaotic potions,
Of longing for the person
I used to know as me.

CHAHAT

Jisko kabhi sheesha kabhi aina kehte ho tum,
Seene ke us muqaam mein hum rehna chahte hai,


Maujon ka daar nahi hai ,sahil se nahi hai pyaar,
Bas thamlo hume tum,hum behna chahte hai,


Aankhon ne baat karli, nazro ne bhedh khola,
Ab honth kaampte hai kuch kehna chahte hai,


Kya yaad karoge humko jab paas hum na honge,
Tere khawaab mein khayal mein hum rehna chahte hai,


Khayal mein tere aks se yeh sab to keh chuke hai,
Tere saamne agar ho ijazat kehna chahte hai..!!!

A Love Story That Didn't Worked Out

July 13 afternoon

Both met on messenger the usual hi hello, BOY tried to ask her wat happened back there but she didn't understand so he went offline

but he sent a testimonial to her this :
"i wanted to ask u that wat wrong i did that u left me plz answer me"

In the night 11:15

Boyz Frnd calls him and tells him his yahoo account has been hacked so BOY comes online and GAL is also online so .........................

BOY: am waiting for ur reply
GAL: look.....i dont waana talk abt dat..its better u shuld forget all dat..nd still if u want to be my frnd.u r most welcum
BOY: i said its my last question i just need to know why thats it
GAL: dat means if i dont answer ur questoin ..u ll not talk to me.?
BOY: answer my question first and i'll answer all ur questions after that
BOY: am still waiting .................. waiting from past hr now answer me
BOY: what wrong i did
GAL: trust me i never had any hard feelings for u...bt it was just dat ..our relationship was not workin ..i never had dat kind of feelings 4 u...it shuld be better ki hum sirf dost hote
BOY: but u never talked about it
GAL: ab bata rahi hu na
BOY: if our relationship was not working out then why didnt u told me so
GAL: i was not able to
BOY: ok thank you for clearing this confusion :) i had i'll make sure u never hear my name again ur life again
BOY: bye forever
i still loved u

BOY went offline and recieve this msg as sms

GAL: its very nice of u to say that ...... bt plz understand ......... we can still be gud frnzz ..if u want to.....i'll wait for ur reply cyaa

JULY 14 1:40 pm

BUZZ!!!
BOY: i really apreciate that u r intrested in being friends but plz its not possible even if we remain as friends i wont be able to stop myself from coming close to u. two ex - lovers can never become good friends. its better that we stay away from each other :)
BUZZ!!!
GAL: okk..no problem...bt still u aquire a place in my heart....
BOY: plz dont lie
BOY: u were the first person who made me cry becouse of u i was not able to sleep for 6 months only thinking wat went wrong MARK MY WORKS THE SAME THING WILL HAPPEN WITH U ALSO AND THEN U'LL FEEL THE PAIN AND SUFFERING I WENT THROUGH
GAL: m not lying..its upto u to beleive me...nd i m very sory for hurting u ..bt kabhi na kabhi toh u had to face it..
BOY: plzzzzzzzz now dont let me feel.........................................................

SOMEBODY ........................................

Somebody came into my dreams,
And left a thousand memories.
Somebody became mine,
And left me the waiting.

Somebody is far from me today,
But very close to my heart.
Somebody became a stranger to me,
But left me the Love of a thousand years.
Now the morning beauty is gone,
And the night of loneliness begins.

Somebody got close to me,
And my life completely changed.
Somebody left me to the bitter seasons,
And left me the memories of spring.
Somebody made promises to me,

And left me with a broken heart.
Somebody came into my dreams,
And left a thousand memories.
If you are wondering who was it
That somebody was . . . .

PYAAR

pyar eeswar ki den hai
ise badnaam na kijiye
sansaar main aae ho to
doosron se pyar kijiye
jis se pyar kiya hai
to use apnaiye
sansaar rooth jaae to kya
pyar ko na roothne di jiye
eeswar se kuch maangna hai
to pyar hi maangiye
pyar par tiki hai zindgi
yeh jaan lijiye
pyar ek aaina hai
is main apne aapko dekhiye
pyar ek amanat hai
ise samhaal kar rakhiye
pyar ek raasta hai
door se manzil talaasiye
pyar ek wada hai
is wade ko nibhaiye
pyar agar kiya hai to
duniya se na dariye
jisse pyar kiya hai
uska intzaar kijiye

Mujhe tera pyaar chahiye

• Kaafir hai zindagi, panaah chahiye,
• pathbhrast hai zindagi aastha chahiye,
• sooni hai ye, khusiyaan ise sab chahiye,
• sar pe chaadar nahi koi mashab chahiye.
• Sahara nahi hai, tinka chahiye,
• tere dar aana hai, raasta chahiye,
• aaj tak na manga, aaj mangta hoon, ek udhaar chahiye,
• deta hai to de mujhe tera pyaar chahiye,
• mujhe tera pyaar chahiye.

Am I Free ???

I still remember that night. About 1 year before a mysterious dream went through me, while I was sleeping. Someone knocked my door, it was raining out and the night was really very dark .I tried watching through eyehole but it didn’t helped me out. I opened the door there was a man standing in front of me, tied with chains. I was afraid though i was unable to see the face it was looking dull, I realized i have to go to eyes specialist to change my number again. But my mind came out of that when I again thought of that man. He cried and begged in front of me please…….please help me out, free me from these chains. I thought i should help him out, as i moved my hands to open his chain he laughed at me and said to me:”How would you free me??? You too are like me”. I was shocked and a little rude and closed the door without any helps. And there I could hear voice of my alarm clock. I took a little time to think over that dream but remembered I m late by 5 minutes. Damn I m getting late ufff……………. As I went to office I was about 15 minutes late. My boss called me to his cabin, he was angry on me and told me:This is the second time I m warning you. You are always late to office. We are not giving you salary for free.” I said sorry and came out of the cabin. My mood was upset because of that dream and my f**king boss, still have much work to do, so I got busy again with my work.

Days went off, each day same shit, nothing special, nothing new all boring work and work. Ohh yeah have to send salary to home, I just thought about that hmmmm…… what’s next lets check the call history. Ooops 3 missed call 2 from office and 1 from home, there is a message too attached to it. “Seems like you have forgot everything, the billing dates are near, when u gonna send the money???”

Months went off each month same schedule. Finally got holiday, so came home. Ahhhh at last gonna be free. Reached the door took a deep breath of relaxation and got my finger on the door bell. All came out to welcome me, the king is back to his kingdom. All asked me about me “How are you??You looking very thin, they don’t give u food to eat kya???” Had lunch with the family, slept after that as I was tired. Good morning……..oops its evening slept in noon after a long time. “The dinner is ready”: mom shouted. “Yeah, coming mom”. Wow my favorite dish: “Thanks mom”. While having dinner pop said: “So when you getting promotions???”. “Yeah soon maybe”: I replied. “How much money you getting right now???” “45,000 Rps right now.” Chats gone for a long time, but dunno what I said, dad got angry on me. ”Do what you wanna do it’s your own life, you never care for anyone. Just look at Mr. Sharma’s son, he too is of same age as you are………..” : he said. Mom came in between taking my side, stopped father. I came to my room, mood was spoiled. Why a father always thinks that his son lie no where??? I was not feeling sleeping by any chance, so jus jumped on my bed with my eyes wide open, lights OFF only a dim lamp was ON. Don’t remember when I slept, that same dream came again. But the face was not dim this time, I was shocked to see that man, he looked like me……..i mean he was me. I was confused. He laughed at me and asked me: “So, now are you free??? Is your life in your hand or you have to depend on others for your decisions…….What are you working for??? Your relations or yourself or just for money??? You are just living for relations, You are not living relations.” He said that and vanished and the dream too was broken. I wasn’t able to sleep after that….That dream really made me think over it…………………….AM I REALLY FREE???????

ARE WE REALLY FREE??????. All working for money, all working to survive in this world just for power and prestige. No time to share our tensions, pains and even happiness with someone. Even the family matters ends at so called money topic. I m really working for money so as all. NO WE ARE NOT FREE.